Mindfully babbling

So this is it.

Around this time tomorrow, I'll be sitting in a cubicle facing a computer screen with some 250 questions all related to aromatherapy (obviously).

My conscientious angel voice keeps whispering into both my ears to study, but I can't seem to get my head to follow the angel's voice of reason. I had all day yesterday to go over the materials, but I ended up zoning out instead, mindlessly and endlessly listening to some Japanese TV shows on the internet while working on something irrelevant. All I can say is, I wasn't in the mood. It sounds really terrible to actually put my thoughts into words. Like, I'm taking it lightly or couldn't careless about it. 

I think 80% of what I need to know is imprinted in my head for the exam, so I feel somewhat confident. But when I psychoanalyze my loopy mind, I think there is a part of me that's afraid of facing the reality-- finding out there is a lot more of what I don't know than the other way around. In a way, I think it's my defense mechanism at work so that I don't have to face the ugly truth and save my face instead. Something like that. If that makes any sense. 

So here I am. Killing time typing up my thoughts as they pop up when I should be listening to my angel's voice. Be a good girl and study hard!

OK, just got my period. That explains my voracious appetite and inability to sleep through the night. Maybe it just means that my share of melatonin is even more scarce as my estrogen level keeps going downhill? I mean, I knew it was coming, but it was supposed to get here tomorrow as per my calendar. Not a biggie. It happens a lot. Sometimes early, sometimes late. Now I'm even more out of it than before I started writing this blog. Every woman on earth would know what I'm talking about, but the first couple of days of period are no fun at all. Your mind gets cloudy. Your body gets lethargic. You're not really you. But then again, who am I??

On the bright side, I guess I should be thankful that I didn't get my period tomorrow during the exam. 

Anyway, I'm going to have to snap out of it by 3pm today. I have my tutoring job, and I can't talk and walk like a zombie. Maybe I'll take a nap. Am I ever going to be ready for tomorrow? Just wanna get it over and done with. Crossing my fingers!